Connor Christopher Earnshaw

Myself and my partner had been trying for a baby for five years.
It started to get a bit upseting seeing my brother and sisters having babies and me not being able
to conceive, but when my nephew and neice were born in 2005 I started getting morning sickness so I
decided to do a test it came up positive and my partner and I were the proudest people alive. When
we went for the 20 week scan we found out we were having our first baby boy, my son I thought to
myself I couldnt have been happier. Every pay day I would go down town and look for really cute baby
boy things. Weeks went by and my partner and I had decided to name our unborn son Connor. At round
about 30 weeks we got all his nursery things and bedroom ready we were so excited. I can remember it
being a hot day in April and I started to get really bad back ache so my mum took me up to the
delivery ward and the midwife put me on a monitor and told me my baby was destressed so I would have
to stay in hospital and then they could keep an eye on me. It got into the early hours of the
morning and the midwife broke my waters and after a couple of hours of contractions I gave birth to
my beautiful son Connor. I had been waiting for this moment for 9 months to meet my baby and hold
him in my arms but that moment never came he was rushed to intensive care the midwifes reasured me
he was going to be fine and they would take me to see him soon. A few hours had passed and they took
me to see him and he was beautiful. The nurses told us we wouldnt be aloud to take him home for
about four weeks, because he was poorly. He had to have lots of tests done and a few specialists
came to see him we later found out Connor was going to die from a life Threatening illness, Gauchers
Disease.
Connor lived until he was 6 weeks old. All our dreams had been shatterd. Why us?? we had longed for
children, I would have been a great mum I have so much love to give and no baby to give it to. In
the future we do hope to have another baby that we can love but it will mean lots of tests and if
the baby is not healthy I would have to have an abortion because mine and my partners cells dont
mix. We love you connor more then anything in the world you are mummy and daddys little prince and
not a day goes by when we dont think about you. Rest in peace our special little angel, God loaned
you out to us for 6 short weeks and needed you back. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
You are only a dream away goodnite and godbless xxxx

please light a candle for my uncle robert eddleston